you're my special star~

lone wolf

2010-01-25T05:35:00.000-08:00

ever experience when u needed an extra help and u just dont receive it? well thats wad society is for now...

yea writting this on a foul mood .

yea everyone who saw me thought that im a happy go lucky guy but thats just what they assume.

yes i wear a mask, everyone does it.

but when the mask receive too much negativity, it will crack too.

just like how my mask chipped right now.

everyone had a bottle, its just a matter of time before each bottle fills to the brim and need to let go.

i guess right now im letting everything go.

whats my mask u asked? i put on a mask or rather, a role called friendly.

i always had a belief that if im nice, my actions will get reciprocated.

but i guess the world is not as beautiful as i imagined.

it instead, holds some of the world most vile, vicious things on it.

i used to picture the world with colours of rainbo, but now? its all black and white and grey.

why does the world feels so bleak to me?

why is so many negativity surrounding me? its suffocating.

so yea back to the nice guy part, it seems i have side track a tad too much.

about being a nice person, yea everyone likes a nice person in their life.

but have they treat them like one? or rather they regard these kind of people as usable, of value

and thrash?

well i know myself that i not an entire nice guy at all but at least i show effort into it.

why must i suffer alone?

it seems everything im in need of my assistance i gave my all but when i require 1, its just not gonna make it?

is life suppose to be like that?

is this human's habit?

it seems its in every human nature to "push" help aside and be on the receiving end.

well its not the first time anyway...living on this filthy world for 18years.

perhaps its time to take the mask off and become 1 with the society? hahahaha...

gonna learn to say "i dont know" "dont ask me" "no" "i forgot" "ask him/her/them" more often =]

lets just say im turning adulthood right now eh? =]

i guess im gonna start choosing friends properly right now.

altho people say having more friends is good, but is it really beneficial?

guess not.

well ending this with a big fuck off to the world. ^^ bye.

full bottle.

2010-01-10T03:35:00.000-08:00

a bottle can only fill up to the amount they are created...but what about those that are already filled to the brim? some manage to empty all the water but there are other bottles which are unable to do that or don't know how to do that. those that manage to empty their water feels light but in the process adding more waater to the rest around them..

some unable to handle the large amount of water and shatter to pieces..while some just let it overflow...

but what can this particular bottle do? it does not want to add more water to others yet he does not have the capacity to hold it in anymore..

let it go? or not...

the moon's feeling

2010-01-04T21:20:00.000-08:00

so..sch finally started...

and so bored ....in library writing this thing now...

just gotta post everyday for fun.

hahahahahahahhahahaha

well whats with my title? u have to ask the moon :D

bye.....

without words..

2010-01-03T18:49:00.000-08:00

well..im back to here..haha

looking back at 2009...memories are filled...

everything should start anew at 2010...

but im held back here...

must be strong, must be strong

overcome all emotional situation..^^

ok finished my welcome back words :D

yea changed my blogskin to this..

i really like this drama so all of u must watch !!

you're beautiful => name of the drama

i have also uploaded the several music from the drama into my new playlist so go listen

its mostly melancholic music..which suits my style

and i happens to have the same music taste as park shin hye noona :D

hope there will be you're beautiful season 2...

last but not least...love u guys...

may 2010 be a good year for us all..

2009-11-13T09:17:00.000-08:00

SEAN SHOO!
DON'T ALWAYS SO LATE THEN SLEEP LAH!
CANNOT WAKE UP ON TIME FOR SCHOOL STILL ALWAYS LATE LATE THEN SLEEP.
ORBI! =P
Hehehe, study hard lah!
I'm still waiting for you to come TP! :)
Jiayou! ALL THE BESTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! =Pp

OKAYSXZZZZZZZZZZZ?!?

Goodnight :)

recent shit

2009-11-05T17:58:00.000-08:00

bored. tired. sick. sleepy. unhappy. hate school.

well i got a warning letter today lol.

it wrote these several things..

1. we note that your attendance to date for Enterprise Networking module is 94%.
2. we wish to remind that you will not be allowed to sit for the module exdam unless you have achieved a minimum attendance of 95% before the exam.
3. you are therefore advised not to absent yourself from training henceforth.

if we actually look at it my way, the first sentence said that im at 94% already.
now we look at sentence no.2. done that? ok now think of this. whats the point of me going anymore since my attendance is already 94%? i mean its at 94% now, and going to school everyday is definately not gonna increase it to 95% right? i wanna ask teacher about this but the situation will be in dire if he thinks im gonna truant right?

i really dont know what the fuck i want to do already. somehow i felt that i dislike this course alot. but what else can i do? shit grades, shit course. its god damn funny that i do all the assignment given to me and i got a 2.4 gpa. lol and if that is not worst, this term i got a warning letter.

why not i just go back to being like what i did in my sec sch days? hahaha. this is a rather lengthy post and im just randoming ranting about my life. fug my life hahah
oh well, study is so not my thing anyway. if studying and not studying does no different and i still get 2.4, i will choose NOT TO STUDY. we'll see this term grading. good luck to all the 3points and above. hahaha.

this is a pointless post and i doubt anyone gonna see it lol since my blog has been dead since july.

last but not least again, fuck my life.

small uppdate

2009-07-26T18:56:00.000-07:00

yo ppls! lololol its been soooooo long since i last blog hahahahah yea u guess it right ! im busy with sch and shit.

hmm small update for everything i guess

Game:
Maple train to 90 and scar helmed! :o
Warcraft playing weird rpg map and getting to a high lvl =_=
Battle of Destiny train to a lv23 archer D:

I GUESS IM NOT BUSY FOR SCH AFTERALL! LOLOLOLOOLOLOLOLOOLOLOLL

life:
sch project sux =_=
Late for last friday's test ._.
swear to ace the friday's pcs test!
practise more to perfect my networking skills heh
WANTS HOLIDAY!

ok thats all incase i got caught by teacher =x ciaoosu

internet is back!

2009-06-24T01:47:00.000-07:00

WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MY INTERNET IS BACK! AFTER LIKE 4 days?!?!?! SCREW U LINKSYS AND STARHUB!!!!

so y i scold them? =x

heres the short summary...

on the first day my internet died...my aunty called starhub..so they say is the router problem...and gave us the number to linksys...so yea we called the linksys...which after awhile..THEY ALSO SAY ITS NOT THE ROUTER PROBLEM, ITS THE MODEM FAULT!! so..again..they give us the number to starhub..wtfux!?!??!?!

so...we decided to wait for the next day instead..maybe the problem will be solved..

day 2....

ITS NOT WORKING AGAIN!!!! FUX MAN! so out of desperation..i use wad i learn in class!!! muahahaha. i switch the cables here and there..and kind of figure out its the modem fault (i tried direct cabling to the com) but im not certain mah..so my aunty call starhub again...well..this time THEY are certain its the modem fault.(this is already the 3rd day..i join 2nd and 3rd day together =x) so we happens to have a spare modem..and i switch it..GUESS WAD!?! IT WORKS! well duh..or else how i would be blogging now =.=

well..last but not least...SCREW U LINKSYS AND STARHUB!!!

ok enuf about ranting..time to talk about june 22th...had class that day..and it wasn't a pleasant 1 = =

because we had bni and pcs test~!

i score a 63.x% for my final exam -.- 7% away from pass...but lucky teacher say the overall weighted percentage is 50% and above u pass liao..so i heng =x (my overall % is 70+~~ =D) so yea...im promoted to ccna2!

after that we had a break..and i sit with the girls ._. the guys are all calling me the betrayal LOL (but i sit to do project mah!!!) so yea soon break is over and its time for pcs test..well..all i can say is..its a breeze =x manual and advance installation is like so easy luh =x lalala~~ within about 1hr..we complete le and i pass both pcs and bni =D

hmm..this is too short to end the post right? afterall its been like a week since i last blog =/

what to talk about? i duno...im sure none of the readers like to hear me talk about keroro too ya? =/

hmm...time to declare again...IM SINGLE AND AVAILABLE!! GOD DAMMIT!!! no ppl wan me T_T im nmnhnblm (No Money No Honey NoBody Love Me) LOL yea i know everyone is gonna say..wait for the right time and monent for the right person to arrive..but i waited for like..1 to 2years le? @.@ and to think about it..i realize i never did treat my relationship well..=/ but well..time makes a person mature..and i think i have grown abit =x *dont think too far into the physical growth ty!* hahahahahah ok la enough crapping....will blog more on june 26th...which is the date to the so called class bbq..looking forward to it!

CIAOOSU! SAYONARA!!!

outing at yesterday...

2009-06-18T01:39:00.000-07:00

imeem sucks so i decided to hop to another website ^^ now all the songs are full! not 30seconds of shit... so yea ytd went outing wif my sec sch mates.. leon, zi xiang and the shit liar worthless bastard ^^ well we went to orchard (practically the whole day) ok too fast...backtrack abit ya? we went to meet zhi hao gf and her clique..andwe went to erm..far east plaza. ok all storey are full of clothes -.- well nvm get to talk crap with leon and zi xiang lol. after like few hours (1 or 2 i guess) they went to smoke..(i din smoke~! i good boy ok) and we went on a adventure to hunt for..FOOD! zh and his gf go carls jr eat while me, leon and zi xiang went to subway..(cheaper -.- yes. we are poor ppl in singapore unlike someone~~~~)

so yea..while eating..we crap more...and b4 we know it..we finish our meal already..so we went to meet up with zh and go heeren..woohoo -.- guess wad? its full of clothes again~! saw a shop that sell shirt that looks like from pasar malam..lol (clothings with imprint of tiger..stuff like that) the price of it is 167.30!! omg!! pasar malam was like 3 for 10 bucks man~~!!!!

so yea..it was 8pm already by the time we hang around these 2 shopping mall..doing nothing but crapping lol -.-

after that i headed home via mrt and the rest go woodland..
i received a call from jazz at 12+..they are stuck at woodland with no transport..i wonder how they get home @.@

so yea that conclude my trip yesterday...now is time to tag ppl..(so sway i visit jazz blog and i saw my name -.-

All the 14 person must do this quiz unless (s)he does not have a blog.Write the names of the 14 people that you can think of the top of your head , then answer the questions!.

1. Danielle
2. Amanda
3. Ming en
4. Leon
5. Charmaine
6. Chien ying
7. Eileen
8. Ivy
9. Zhi hao
10. Quan yi
11. Celia
12. Tim
13. sandra
14. Mabel

1. How did you meet 7 ?(eileen)

-Maple private! ( she happens to be my cousin's sch mate too -.-)

2. What will you do if you and 13 never met ?(sandra)

-impossible...shes my cousin o.O

3. What will you do if 1 and 12 date ?(danielle and tim)

-they don't know each other ? and..danielle is not available =x

4. Have you ever seen 14 cry ?(mabel)

-Nop...

5. Would 4 and 11 be a good couple ?(leon and celia)

-LOL! they don't even know each other haha

6. Do you think 11 is attractive ?( celia)

-yea i guess...everyone is attractive ok!

7. Wthat is 2 's favourite colour ?(amanda)

-er...pink?

8. What was the last time you talk to 9 ?(zhi hao the shit liar bastard)

-16hours ago

9. What language does 8 speaks ?(ivy)

-English, chinese.

10. Who is 13 going out with ?(sandra)

-Jun yuan

11. What grade is 12 in ?(tim)

-college (fitness training

12. Would you ever date 10 ?(quan yi)

-Oh yes Oh yes Oh yes~~!! gaagagagagga just joking

13. Where does 5 live ?(charmaine)

- er..is it..france? or australia? i only know she stay in..wait i forgot where she stay in singapore too -.-

14. What's the best thing about 3 ?(ming en)

-best thing...hmm......fun to talk wif?

15. What would you want to tell 10 ?(quan yi)

-I LOVE YOU!!! BREAK WIF YONG CHUAN AND MING EN AND WEI FONG AND BE WIF ME! lololol

16. What's the best thing about 8 ?(ivy)

-She is friendly

17. Have you ever kissed 5 ?(charmaine)

- Virtually yes =x (she raped me virtually too!)

18. What's the best memory you with 7 ?(eileen)

-our horny chats. HAHAHAHAHAH

19. When was the last time you saw 6 ?(chien ying)

-she die already...(not literally..just that she mia -.-)

20. How are 12 and 14 different ?(tim and mabel)

-tim is boy and mabel is gal? (god..this questions are boliao =.=)

21. Is 6 pretty ?(chien ying)

-NO! jking haha..pretty and cute ba

22. How did you meet 5 ?(charmaine)

-Maple too! (delphinus world of maplesea)

23. Is 1 your best friend ?(danielle)

-OF COURSE!

24. Do you hate 12 ?(tim)

-nahh

25. Have you seen 4 last month ?(leon)

-Yup

26. What was the last thing you said to 3 ?(Ming en)

-i duno..lol (YES I SAID THAT TO HIM!)

27. Have you been to 5 house ?(charmaine)

-nop..but i want =x (shes cute ok! and fun and..she got yurism D:)

28. When's the next time you going to see 10 ?(quan yi)

-june 22th

29. Are you close with 13 ?(sandra)

-yea quite close

30. Have you ever been to a movie with 4 ?(leon)

-Yup.

31. Have you ever been into a trouble with 8 ?(ivy)

-Nope.

32. Would you give 2 a hug ?(amanda)

-hmm...provided she dun mind and she dun bully me T_T

33. When have you lied to 3 ?(ming en)

-All the time!! joking haha

34. IS 1 good with socialising ?(danielle)

-YES + CHOP!

35. Do you know secrets about 9 ?(zhi hao)

-too much to mention here (hes gay too)

36. Descibe the relationship between 12 and 14 ?(tim and mabel)

-Strangers

37. Best thing about your friendship with 9 ?(zhi hao)

-he is a good friend. ^^

38. What's the first thing with 6 ?(Chien ying)

-wad do u mean by the first thing? -.-

39. Have you ever had a crush on 12 ?(tim)

-HELL NO.

40. Does 14 has a stead ?(Mabel

-Im not sure..lol

41. Have you ever wanted to punch 1 's face ?(danielle)

-NOWAY!!

42. Has 2 met your mother ?(amanda)

-no...

43. How do you get to meet 3 ?(ming en)

-CLASS OF PB0904K!

44. Did you ever physically hurt 3 ?(ming en)

-Nope...instead he physically and mentally hurt me T_T hahahahaha

45. Do you live close to 7 ?(eileen)

-yes if u think singapore is small..god dam far if u think singapore is big =/

46. What's 8 favourite food ?(ivy)

-I dontknow :/

47. What kind of cars does 1 have ?(danielle)

-we are just students -.-

48. Have you ever travelled anywhere with 9 ?(zhi hao)

-almost everywhere liao -.-

49. iF YOU GIVE 14 $100 , what will (s)he spent on?(mabel)

-this 1 i know! lady gaga stuff, all time low stuff, magazine..er...treat me food? =x

revive again!! (dam..im sooo soo sooo lazy)

2009-06-13T00:02:00.000-07:00

okie today shall not post much =x cuz i wanna play game! so i will show u a nice mv..watch it and comment =]

p.s its a mv not a k-drama!

my crazy chats in msn~

2009-06-07T06:57:00.001-07:00

this is the pic of my crazyyyyyy class chat in msn~ <3 u guys la xD

wooooooooooo

2009-06-04T05:32:00.001-07:00

i want this mp3!!! and yes its pink. anyone wanna buy it for me? =/

bring back my laughter..

2009-06-03T10:37:00.000-07:00

i don't know what to say. i can't even think. i don't know what to do. i don't wanna know. it seems that my thoughts have filled to the brim...wanna find a outlet and release..wanna cry..wanna cry hard for 1 time =/ whats happening? where is my old self? i dont know...i seriously dont know... oh well this is a meaningless post

i failed. lol.

2009-05-29T08:30:00.000-07:00

hooyah! today was a baddddddddddd day -.-

well lets start from the morning...I WAS LATE!!! i woke up at like 9.15? -.- i was like oh shit. den i quickly change (without bath) and rush to sch..den it was pcs lesson...with the same cookie teacher again...well for the chapter 5 of pcs..i score 71%..not that good...so yea pcs last till 10.30 and we was dismiss..

was about to go when danielle ask me to stay back awhile and do the bni questions with her ._. it went smoothly for like 2 question b4 we are like "what the hell?". the way the question ask for answers totally confuse us so we decided to ask mr roger( the super nice teacher) for help..he taught us all the way to 12 LOL! we both were like totally understood the whole subnet thingy ! i find mr roger quite good..or should i say..1 of the best =] he taught us despite he himself had some event going on(teaching new teachers about how to teach the lesson). so yea thats all about sch...after that i met jazz with his father (his dad drove us to tm) we went for the work.

hmm..well heres the part where it was funny. for the job...i ask like dam alot of questions about the job..after that we wore the uniform for it lol. i kinda look like a weird jap cosplayer -.- so yea at 3pm we started working...it was quite relax...slacking like theres no ending..max was like 2 to 4 person per 30min..we basically learn how to clear the table fast, scoop rice and soup fast..and multitask (hold 2rice and soup). life seems to idle slowly during that timing...b4 i knew it..it was 7 liao. thats where my nightmare begin..

HEAPS OF PEOPLE STARTING COMING TO EAT TENPENYAKI. I WAS LIKE WTF? so many ppl..i was moving non stop..clearing and placing settings..it was so busy to the point where i was told to hold 11 bowls of rice at once...well..my arm power are not that strong..so i ask someone else to do it =x so yea it was hectic and b4 we knew it..the rice cooker was empty..so i went to get more rice back in the kitchen..

after taking like 20kg-30kg of rice..i was gonna carry it out to the rice cooker..and guess wad i kena?

YES! A CUT! it was bleeding profusely man!! as i take the rice out thru the squeezy kitchen..i went out forcefully and my hand was at the edge of the sharp kitchen metal table! sob..pain man..so i spray some ...wad u call that? antiseptic i tink? and put on the plaster..and yea..soon it was off time! 9.30! was sweeping the floor and stuff like that..den i pop out the lamest decision -.- i told the guy(his name was q.g) that i wanna quit LOL. he was like..steady leh..dont work halfway like that..but i realize im not cut out to do this job..well..u could say i weak or wad but i really find it straining during the peak hour..right now my back is hurting badly -.-

well gotta say sorry here..to damien and jazz...i only work 1 day...i dont have the determination i guess..i fail our sec sch motto too..(success thru perserverence)
i hope u can find another person who can take over me ar...

ok shall stop here..wall of text is killing my readers..hahahaha

the days that turn blue..-

2009-05-28T04:56:00.001-07:00

haha i wrote the title and accidentally press enter -.-

well this time im gonna blog more..(i realize my blog is words extensive and not picture extensive -.-) so far in school..it was quite hectic..had java test yesterday and it went thru smoothly? =/ the day b4 we had pcs test and i think i scrap thru ba...hmm i guess this part of the blog spot is irrelevent to my title but well..blog is about writing ur daily life..right?

so lets talk about today. skipped SW and go for pcs lesson..can say im slightly pissed =/ im not sure if teacher deliberately close my internet connection ( i was doing my online test halfway) or the whole class get disconnected. well if he did deliberately close mine only..hes a shit dirt fag! i mean im not doing other things like surfing games or wad..im just doing the test lo..(no offence to classmates >.>) and the way he pick on the smallest mistake is so *(@^*&^#*@&^#*@. im talking about the java test incident. my notepad title was AssignmentTest and my java class was Assignmenttest. like that he also say im wrong wth -.- and when i show him my script he even said "u can compile it ar?" i was like..gonna say "if i cant compile how can u see the script in dos promnt?" -.- so yea i hated him lol. but i hate him not the subject so i will still listen to his lesson =] y cant he be a lil friendlier? like mr roger (hes dam helpful and friendly luh!! lololol) and mr ismail =/

i heard that next week had naffa..i wanna skip but im afraid i might fail =/ not to say that i go for naffa i sure pass la..(sure fail) i just scared i might get debar or something...oh yea forgot to say about the last lesson today..LLA a.k.a lifeskill.
IT WAS FREAKING HILARIOUS CAN??? hahah...my group was the joker -.- (me, ming en, amanda and peiling?(i duno ur name sry ><)) it was about wad are the top 10 things u need to have to survive a crash (like Lost the drama). we basically had fun and laugh all the way lol.

well..i dont know if i made u mad or something..doubt u will look at my blog too..but i wanana say is that if i made u mad or something...i hereby apologize..hope we still can keep in contact k?

another thing is...i feel depressd =/ i duno if im really really lonely or wad ...but whenever i see some couples..my heart just dont feel right lol..whats the point of saying this out on my blog u might think? well..i had no idea..(just wan to keep my blog long and for those ppl that say my blog is dead..ITS ALIVE OKAY!!! ITS ALIVE AND KICKING!! RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH) so yea..im single and AVAILABLE. loled. oh ya im gonna start working tml..in tampines mall ...basement...tenpanyaki there..do drop me a visit and eat there too!! zettai arigato gozaimasu!!!

hah ok i shall end here..i bet all of u skip past the wall of text to this part =P
so yea i shall stop here...hope there will be more spice in my life..

IM LAZY ARH!!!

2009-05-17T18:37:00.000-07:00

CIAOSSU

OHIO GOZAIMAS MINNA DES! these few days im freaking lazy to do anytihng +_+"

am at sch now but dont have the mood to study =.= well..lets see what have i done past the weekends...friday i went to bought the gundam sets right? well i fix all of them in 2 days..(include a wing gundam =D) and right at the early dawn of sunday..i drank 6 glass/cups of chivas =.= was total knockout! hahahahah and sunday i had steamboat with family at home..was feeling shag at the same time because of the hangover =/ will post pic later of the gundams ...PLS REMIND ME!!! by msn or by sms!!! well gtg CIAOSSU

trans em mode! TARGET LOCKON!!!

2009-05-14T18:10:00.000-07:00

CIAOSSU

wahahahahahah today im gonna buy 3 gundam model kit =D astray Gold, blue and red~ heard from friend that its going to stop production already..so im gonna collect them =D my next target after that would have to be gundam wing zero custom =D my fave gundam of all time!! will post pic later if i manage to fix them fast =D will post again later~~~ now at sch desu~ good bye!

CIAOSSU

tiring day des

2009-05-13T00:47:00.000-07:00

oh tian...in sch now..blogging....sibeh tiring sia....1 lesson min 4hr =.= well i blogging now for duno wad reason =/ too bored...hmmm this friday i have outing with teh losterians again =D weee so happy des!! watashi wa zettai happy des ne! honto honto!! hmm well i spend my bday at may 9th at home =/ so sad sia..my 18th bday is spent at home...no presents somemore... den on may 10 which is mother's day, we went to have a buffet at east point! the beef is like sooo nice lor!!! broke my psp chaarger. bought a new psp batt..well thats mostly done i guess =/

my life is getting more bland =.=

hontoni...watashi wa tsuki des ne..demo...watashi wa courage ja arimasen...(maybe wrong lol but i still learning jap)

blogging for the sake of blogging

2009-05-01T10:21:00.000-07:00

CIAOSSU!!!

ahh so long nv update...i mus remind myself to update everyday man!! so hmm what have i been doing the whole week? well tuesday i started sch at simei...wednesday bought all my notes...and guess what? thursday is my test -_- thats so zomgwtfbbqsauceinbarbequepit!! well i score 76.1%..though i did not study..*wonders if i could score 100% if i did study....* so yea..and today, saturday, is suppose to be archery club's first lesson? i dont know if i wanna report anot..maybe i will go ba lol hmm i dont know why but i feel depress everyday -_- god knows what the hell is wrong with me..my mom says because im too lonely O.O (hint..i need a galfren) lawl i doubt i can get 1 and i dont think i will get 1?? sch life is so hectic already...i duno ar..see what god has in front for me =/ well i dont know what to type anymore...im out.. ciaossu

shag week

2009-04-22T04:31:00.000-07:00

CIAOOSU

DUE TO POPULAR DEMAND FOR THE PERSONALITY TEST.

HERE IT IS >> http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

hmm..update on my life yea? this week of sch i sibeh shag...monday was alright but not my stomach...since last week..i keep vomiting everytime i consume any food..and when i vomit..i vomit out EVERYTHING. waste money right? last week went to cineleisure with my 2 friends - PAPA KANG and moo..watch "knowing". its not a great movie...yet it does not suck. i deem it a movie worth to watch but the decision is on u man. lol.

school part?

well..school is great..but i did not make much friends..maybe because im not a extrovert? i keep things to myself.. but well..i just cant conenct to their topic..maybe because welll..introvert? am i repeating? lololol.

hmm got to see some of the teacher and they are good. oh i forgot, we are suppose to talk about this week's event =/ well..yea i have been vomiting out all my food for the past 1 week and today is no different...i vomit out the economic beehoon which cost $3+. KNS so yea..after attending the SW1 ( i did not partake in the ecercise) i went home =/ oh ya..yesterday a simei teacher called me and told me theres a slot in simei and ask me to go for interview..i took the opportunity and the interview is on thursday ^^ i haven't told the new to my class yet..only wee boon and ken knew..but i guess i won't make such a big impact yea? im like almost invisible in class >.<

well hope that im successful in my interview..

(not that i hate my current course but i want to save some expense for my mom too..the concession for me from bedok to bishan is $93 per month...)

so thats about it yea...and i overheard my class talking about l4d so i asked them "u got 4?" LOL. my attendence for these 2 week is sibeh jialat.

so..will my ISC class remember me? maybe i should try and talk to them..ask them to add me in facebook and msn to keep in touch..=/

hmm..theres nothing much to write anymore and i shall end here.

P.S gonna change my thai blog song into taylor swift song~~ ( i simply love her "love story")

ciaoosu

2009-04-21T00:40:00.000-07:00

lol random bloghop and found a personality test...

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-04-03T11:55:00.000-07:00

hmm...2 pictures says moer than a thousand words :D

nightmares

2009-03-31T22:46:00.000-07:00

if memories are a proof of existance, i guess im pretty much non-existance haha. jus realize these few days that alot of stuff happens...everything just comes and goes...so much so that i've grown numb to it all man. we used to have fun playing together in garena but yet now u seems so distant away..how did we fall thru huh? i tried to help in all that i can but theres nothing much i can do..well these days lucky got some friends stick thru wif me and basically hang out lol. theres nothing much to write anyway.....

already gone

2009-03-22T08:03:00.000-07:00

what can i say? what can i do?> what to do? everyday feels the same..emo emo emo..is there someone that can get me out of this shit pit of misery?

sucha' fool

2009-03-20T11:10:00.000-07:00

everyday sitting here..lazing around and achieving nothing..*warning this could be a long post about all random craps*

firstly is some poems i made? (sounds crappy but originality is here....)

Sadness sprouts from deep within,
showing it is what we did,
happiness bloom from depressed seeds,
happiness fade as soon as it speaks. (shit poem -,-)

next one,

Thoughts is giving all we can,
action is giving all we have,
join them together forms a key,
unlock the mystery of the kiss.(can it be more crappier!??!?!)

last one..

Try as they might they can't get it right,
what's missing out is the bond inside,
getting the bond takes some time,
results of it is love in sight.(gg)

ok thats all about the poem side...so basically the past few days i never blog..u all must be thinking..*where the hell did sean go!?!?!?* well..for the past few days i have been playing left 4 dead (yea game freak i know) and for the past 3 days i watched finish 23 movies :D time to give my 2 cents worth eh?

Movie 1: 20th century boy 7/10

its not a bad movie..neither is it good..the plot is interesting and deep but the characters are..weird..i guess..nothing much to say except that if u like the manga, go watch it.

movie 2: Underworld; rise of the lycans 8.5/10

it's a nice movie. shows the history of before underworld was made..plot is okay but the scenes was slightly dark..to the point i can't see anything..overall, yea watch it.

movie 3: pokemon the movie: giratina and the skywarrior. 10/10 (LOL)

i like the movie. nuff said.

movie 4: The forbidden kingdom 8/10

what can i say? join action pack together with jackie chan and jet li = awesome movie.

movie 5: Dragonball evolution 1/10

yea see the rating and goes WTF!?!? well it truly lives to it's name of a rating of 1/10..characters look crap...piccolo looks like darth maul...master roshi without his shell...dissapointed but u can watch it for the girls...hehe.

movie 6: Crow 0 8/10

the movie is alittle bit like volcano high..except that they have no super powers..fighting was good and u can get drawn into the movie...it's a nice show.

movie 7: Open season 2(cartoon) 7/10

the movie was hell funny and heart warming as well..it talks about discovering who you are and treasuring those around you.

movie 8:Hancock 9/10

well..hancock is nice...it's great to see a superhero saving the citizen as well as destroying properties in the process LOL

movie 9: love guru 9/10

THIS MOVIE IS ONE BIG HELL OF A LOL. watch it!!!

well..lazy to write the remaining movies..maybe i will write it next time.. =/

theres 2 possibility when u read here. either u skip what i said or u really read it LOL. tag me the truth when u read this post..whether u skip past alot or u read every single line ya? =[

time to get personal eh? these few days i've been emoing..emo about what? well..i don't know.. have u ever felt like u need somebody to be there for you..talk to you..but they just aren't there? i bet most or even all of us encounter that before.. i constantly have that feeling and it feels really bad inside me..somethig heavy..dragging u down but theres hardly anyone u can talk to.. in my shoes..i have little friends i confess..im bad at managing friends..haha...

i hardly talk, i could not start a topic, im boring, i have a brain that shutsdown when i want to talk to someone..sometimes i feel that i don't deserve to have a friend. looking back into my life..a lot of time i have friends inviting me to hang out and what i do? i reject them. i don't know why but i have a machanism (sp?) inside me that auto rejects hanging out..its so wtf... why can't i just say "okay sure lets hang"? judging from my attitude i can figure that i can't get any girl..well girls are secondary..but i just can't get this habit of rejecting outings away..

you know, a lot of negative thoughts once go through my mind..like "why not i just go die and restart my life?", "people don't like me", "god, sean you're so useless!" and etc.. these thoughts make me depress everytime it speaks inside my head.

i shall write till here..no mood to continue..

F.r.i.e.n.d.s. do i really have them?
or are they like sands in a hourglass, forever slipping through and further away from me?

2009-03-11T02:02:00.000-07:00

omg...i cant believe ppl will read my blog sia!! xD currently theres 3 reader..maybe more i duno xDxD so as a gift to u all my fans (hehehehe) i will update and revive this blog!

so many days nv update....should have alot of things to say but...i don't know what to say..maybe its a sign that im growing old twice as fast -.- well the only thing i remember now is this sat im gonna watch dragonball evolution D: with who u say? with my left 4 dead team!! peanuts!! this is the first meeting so im gonna be pretty nervous =/ but i feel that dragonball evo is..lame...but anyway..its a gathering!! must feel happy!! and the meeting is almost..all guys!! lololol so yea...this is it -_- my brain shutdown liao...cannot think anymore...

anyway heres a ss i took in left 4 dead...was LAUGHING MY ASS OFF!!!!

HAHAHAHHAHAH i name the jpg "on the way to heaven/criss angel levitation

life's like a bird in a cage

2009-02-21T09:31:00.000-08:00

ahhh...wad a day...basically thinking alot everyday...what to do?does it have to be this way? will it ever change? will it become better? will...well at times like these i wish there was a god..or someone to talk to me..talking about anything..rather den me facing all the thoughts building up in my mind..but..what exactly is building up? i dont know. i don't even wanna know...who can release me from this endless pit of abyss?

taking it off.

2009-02-17T08:36:00.000-08:00

yo again ppls, its time for~~~~ NEW UPDATES HAHAHAHAHHA

so yea today i basically travel half of singapore(maybe) and my first stop is at chinatown :D that place is very quiet in the morning...and hey guess what? i almost got lost in city hall -.-. obstacle past and i reach chinatown with moo and fatty . we had papaya milk..recommended by fatty and..its as hard as a liquor -.- i basically get high from morning to night. the papaya milk stall owner eyebrow dam zai sia...same as zhang fei in 3 kingdom leh >.>

after that we went for the anime figurine shops..and we spotting a..ah *ba* gua @.@ we laugh like theres no tommorow hearing him speak xD of cuz he cant hear us la...so yea after that we went to eat the prawn noodles...dam it again..waste $4 on it...not nice de..normal normal...so yea that covers chinatown :D

after that we head for plaza singapura! now den i know plaza is at douby ghaut( i duno how to spell)..or somewhere near it la...and we play arcade while waiting for yanyan (we are not informed that u decide to forego the outing >.>) we play arcade for 3hours sia..the first game i paly was guitar freak..and the first round of it..i waste $2...i chose a song too hard and its game over (1st song only T_T) but after that the 2nd and 3rd round i become better =] after that moo ask me play the initial d? it was quite easy ...cuz i got alot of cushion at close round corner :D after playing for awhile..we went to sengkang to wait for yanyan who decided to have dinner with us (i think)

the dinner is.. speechless...lots of ("insert chinese old song : "ni kan wo wo kan ni~") staring and laughing -.- all just refuse to order food -.-end up i order first lor =/ den the anorexic moo dont wan eat..say diet..kns. so i order a roasted chicken noodle..rating 2/10 -.- -8 becos got alot of garlic HAHHAHA. fatty order some spicy noodle..and yanyan order a chicken rice o.o

after the dinner ended..we went to play arcade again -.- first we play the..table wif chip and u must bang it wif ur weapon thingy game and percussion master..can proudly say im addicted to percussion master >.>

after that yan go home watch tv while we all stay at a void deck for hours -.- we manage to call yan come down again but it last only 5mins =/ so we all crapping alot until it was very late..and decided to call it a day and go home.. thats all i think =/

been wondering what's my title got to do with this outing? well..i guess i could say that i've been putting on a mask for the few outings...the new side of me which is crazy...funny(?) and lame..and cranky. from what i see..i guess it scares ppl off..so thats how my title goes..i decided to take off this mask..and back to my old self? thanks for the memories everyonne gave me these few weeks..i got to say that i enjoy it very much..but good things don't last forever..the new cranky guy is gone, back to the old, boring, unoriginal self =/ not that i hate my new self but if what im doing is abit too much..im taking it off =/

that would mean there won't be any crazy post now..it will happen once in a blue moon tho..i feel better off writing what i feel..instead of writing what my mask feels. >.<

cheers to everyone! nights all =D

outing aftermath

2009-02-13T08:07:00.000-08:00

ok...this is not outing liao..its aftermath... today nv go out...but moo and a noball guy come my hse..had plenty of fun ba... we all paly monster hunter and kang keep getting pwned hahahahahahha and..i help ah yan and coco do abit of pet society ahem -.- so yea i really duno wad to say le hahahahah..hmm... yea really nothing..

oh ya, tml another 2 of my friend coming :D they gonna play monster hunter wif me too lol so basically...i spend valentine day wif 2 male ~_~. well single can be good at some times..but not at valentine's day =/. when will i be able to celebrate valentines day wif someone i love?

leave it to god.

amen.

outing part 2 (end liao. broke le)

2009-02-11T08:19:00.000-08:00

hoooooooooooooooooooo! today go out with jazz, zi xiang, leon and shit guy. we went to pizzahut in bedok interchange to eat..kns la...buy the student value meal..the $27 1...kns la! pizza small...den end up we buy baked rice...total damage $17...walao... >.> nvm..den bus card no money (WTH!) and adult card min $10...total damage $27....nvm... after that we take bus to orchard and the stupid shit guy say wan pee...we go down from bus...WASTE MONEY AGAIN. in the end we reach takashimaya safely and..WOOHOO we forgot wad we wan to do there...so we randomly walk thru all shopping mall we can find...after which i suggest going to suntec cos got the otaku hse =x so we went there and play around in the shop ahahahahhaha. I SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WAN THE REBORN HAT. psst...the salesgirl all cosplay =x after that we go arcade till night b4 feeling hungry xD so we go the food court..and i eat herbal chicken xD...rating for herbal chicken... 1/10. no herbs....chicken is weird...rice small...aiyo...kns sia...

eat finish liao all dun wan go home except the shit guy..den we all take mrt to bedok..and hang out nearby my sch de basketball court...chat and crap till 11 -.- we test each other on animes by playing the song and telling what anime it is. xD mostly is i tell 1..(i got 300+ anime songs) @.@

and hor! they jio me play monster hunter 2g...but...I WAN HACK LEH T_T. so well..maybe i might consider it.

so yea..tomorrow they all got basketball game session..maybe i go there play monster hunter =/

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ok thats all for today =D

(dont bother decoding the last sentence. hahahahahah even if u do, well i duno =/)
p.s AIYA DECODE IF U CAN LAH.

outing part 1

2009-02-10T10:08:00.000-08:00

wooohooo so happy to know from my tagboard that there are ppl reading my blog :D. i love u all my readers ^^ hehehehehe. ok now i shall blog about yesterday's outing(its part 12mn already) i bus-ed to tanah merah to reach the mrt. went to suntec to meet moo and fatty...b4 that i was at city hall..so dam scared im lost -.- well i manage to locate them and we search thru the hmv to find may'n disc but cannot...den we walk around..i realize i talk non stop sia..+ singing also ^^

so we walk to a shop called otaku shop and..we created alot of laughter man xD first we found a reborn hat..and i wear it and imitate reborn xD den we found a urahara hat..but too small and i dun wan try...alot of cosplay costume!! ><>.< *nose bleed* lol. so yea after that we went to...orchard to see see eat eat buy buy...eat a duck noodle at taka..SCAM MONEY ONE SIAL. 5 piece of duck meat and 1 small noodle..thats all. $4 sia...^(@.@)^ RAWR DAM SG PRICE. den after that not full..so we buy the ..chicken thingy fro ma store..he bought 3 chicken..i bought chicken skin and chicken.. nice food ^^ total food damage : $7.50.

we ate it in front of a crystal jade and fatty joke say wad ..we eat and visualise the duck as the chicken meat we eating..den we laugh hard xD den when fatty ask moo to eat the chicken..he have laugh spasm for i-duno-wad-reason o.O well in the end he ate it..so yea xD

after that we head to cinneleisure..and guess wad we saw...nop..not another chiobu..(in fact we saw a m_ _ _ _ _ _ wannabe ) we saw macross vf25 f valkrie alto custom model plane!! moo bought it..and the damage for him is 80bucks!!. song for him >.>

den fatty gtg..so we seperate...he go back i and moo walk to mrt..den moo bring me to my station..or wadever its call..(sorry lah..me mountain terter cannot ah :3 ) after that i reach bedok and i bus-ed to my hse and went homed after that. thats all for today ^&^ <(^.^)> ^(@.@)^

and today..im going out with another group of friends to far east..hopefully i can wake up >.>. OK BYE! XD (will post alot of poem soon)

P.S im recently back into my poem itchiness =x hehe ^(@.@)^

weird poem? lol (original)

2009-02-09T07:52:00.000-08:00

once there's a warrior,
fierce as a man,
fight with his might,
he get what he stands,
but there's 1 thing he couldn't have,
and that is something only you have.

nothing to do so i come up with such a poem lol. maybe someone good in poem and understand it? xD well today is pretty much a..zombie day...y a zombie day? i couldn't sleep at all!! (@)#*@()#*@()#*@() and i woke at 4am..so i play some computer games till like now? lol. well..opposite my block..got ppl jump down -.- so wth man... maybe my insomnia is a premonition for such a tragedy? @.@ and today i fly moo and fatty aeroplane >.> overslept past the time to go out lol. but they fix it to tml too anyway =/. so yea hopefully i dont wake up at 4 again and miss the outing ^^. sean ar..time to wake up and face the reality!! stop being such a kid man!! *slaps ownself* lol. sigh..my blog is my listener =/ theres hardly anyone reading it..which makes it totally a diary =D. well..gotta go soon. night my diary~

bleh day

2009-02-08T05:22:00.000-08:00

CHIWASSU!!~ ytd got semi drunk ^^ feeling was shiok xD (fact #1: i love to drink =x) my vision is like a plantinum 1 com..very "lag". Well yesterday i geh qiang...i pour half a cup of dry gin with no water and ice (pure alchohol)...i down half of the cup's gin..wa...the burning sensation is worst den eating wasabi whole. -.- today might drink baileys... =x all of the drinks are sponsored by...MY MOM =D cool to have a mom like that right xD. hmm alot of ppl ask me what does my msn name meant, その名前は　いつもいつでも, 心優しくさせてく, 胸の中で　消えることはない.

well it means, That name will always, always, make your heart gentle.
It won’t disappear from your heart…

thats all for today =D konbanwa~~

saying of the day:
never try, never know.

2009-02-06T10:59:00.001-08:00

haha gonna slp soon jut now but i forgot to blog ^^ (someone told me to blog about anything everyday so here goes ^^) today nothing much happen, woke up quite late D: well basically facebook the whole day lah lol. (advertisement : join facebook and add me now! remember to play mafia wars!!)

so hmm oh ya today got a msn msg from guo hao that the day after valentine day they will be having a class chalet and im invited ^^. speak about valentine day =/ this will be the 2nd year i will be celebrating alone =/ anyone wanna date me? LOL.

well today theres a funny thing happen. camwhore with fatty and hes cute! CUTE HAHAHHA ko. to. mi. see me wink . well..theres no pic..but theres videos uploaded at my facebook. can take a look there peoples. hmm...nothing to blog about already..ima stop here i guess.

no matter what, u got me =]

screwed day

2009-02-03T22:16:00.000-08:00

hah today is some fuckedup day. lost my green paper from ite and guess wad? no need to study liao lo. all thx to some fucking duno-who-in-my-house who clean my table. i already told so many FUCKING TIMES DO NOT TOUCH MY TABLE. fucking hands itchy. great. just great. thats all for today. ciao

epilogue

2009-01-12T22:19:00.000-08:00

after countless days of no updates to my blog..anybody miss it? lawl maybe not =|
well..many things changes for me especially yesterday..the hell's judgement, o lvl result.
hmm.. what can i say? im happy for all my mates that made it into poly. congratulation yea? as for mates who never made it..dont be discourage, u guys can make it into poly even tho its a long journey. the latter refers to me too and i've been thinking..i really should have buck up and give it all i got..although its abit late as well as not too late to regret, what do u know?? i cant put in a word i want. lol.

so lets take a view at my result.

English 3
chinese 3
combined humanity 8
mathematics 8
combined science 9
total 31

after viewing it..most will say wow..ur english and chinese is good and will lead to saying u should really work hard for ur subject with grade 8. yea i think that way too..but its just too late to realize it. sucks yea? had i know i got a 6 points with english and chinese, i won't be wasting this year doing nothing to improve my other subjects. somehow the saying "time and tide wait for no man" seems to brush pass me lol.

so yea i have totally not considerating to go for private as i know, i will be wasting money as well as 1 year. so..u must be thinking "zomg if u dont go poly where would u go?" well, i basically have 7 courses in higher nitec which is totally not my interest..shall say it out here. 5 courses of business, 1 leisure and travel operation and 1 hospitality operation. location? bishan and clementi ITE ..damn thats far eh? hopefully i can appeal for higher nitec infomation technology course but chances are low. so my only resort is go for nitec info tech and slowly work my way up =/

wow, i wrote such a long post talking about my studies but its not finished yet ^^ so yea..if i start from nitec i will be 27 when i finish all my studies..gosh..old man in poly. if i start from higher nitec tho..it will be 25 no difference lol. well i gonna spend 2009 and beyond studying all shit and not stopping. now i have a goal, and that goal is to reach poly no matter what age and lastly to a university, the latter might be hard but no pain no gain right?

some people are amazed how i can be so optimistic after getting my result. well..call me laid back or whatever..i think everyone goes through a path where they realize their mistake and start working hard for their goal, i might be 1 im not sure..so lets hope i am yea? well overall, this post has to end and i will end it here =/ i will get a update next time ^^ for now, sayonara~~

update day =D

2008-12-14T05:08:00.000-08:00

HOIHOI!!!!

woo so many things to update..be prepare..=x (warning: wall of text might kill you, not for the faint of heart/pregnancy/small eyes ppls/droolings/siao people.)

ok first thing first..gonna talk about today's event~ today mark the finish of my whole house paint finish!! woohoo! (wan to see? spam my tag!)

so yea..and today went to parkway to shop for external harddisk..hell..320gb $159 -.-|| damm it lor..the singapore expo wadever name it fair..SIX HUNDRED FORTY GB $129.90. u say CHEAP ANOT!?!?!? LHFEUIFHECNEKFHIEUOFJI!!!!

so yea..went to ask aunty cindy to help me buy 640gb in sim lim or funan next week ^^

MAIN EVENT:

TADAA!! *drum roll* *sean roll..lolwut?* AHAHAHAHHA me and mom as well as mom's friend and my grandma went to eat sakura at downtown east =x and guess what i found? hehehe...

DANGO!!! *frenzy mode*

more dango pic~~

and lastly........

DOREAMON'S pancake!!

oiishii neh...hehehehehehe

total i ate alot of mussel..prawns..scallop..and almost all the seafood u can think of..wahahahahaha

that ends the event of the day!

hmm...ok backtrack alil..

been playing warcraft alot ..and animes ^^

all the nice animesi shall post the title now

the arrangement are base on memories, not on the most favourite.

Amaenaideyo
Amaenaideyo katsu!!
Kemeko deluxe
Akane iro ni no someru (something like that..)
Futakoi
Futakoi alternative
Macademi wasshoi!
Gintama
Macross Frontier
Clannad

cannot think more..next time i will prepare a paper and pencil and jot down ^^
meanwhile..go see those animes..they are nice..as well as ecchi hehe

hmm..thats all i guess..another week of boring days for me..i wish i have school now..weird..

lalalalalalalala~

hmm..i got a pic of me and other cousins..shall post it =x

from left to right and to the sexy boy on the floor.

Clarice, Cassandra, andrea, forgot, jennifer(i think? o.o),me and timothy mah broooooooo

yea i know..me fat T_T but i trying very hard to..destroy the fats =/

the 3 beside Cassandra is moii american's AUNTY! (wth..and they are just 17 and 18...) ain't it cool? =x i have like 75% of my relatives in america xD (i wish im a japanese tho..)

=D =D =D =D

hmm i guess that marks the end of my update for today.

oh wait!! important news!

BLEACH : FADE TO BLACK(bleach movie 3) IS OUT IN JAPAN ON DECEMBer 13th!!

thats all ^^

P.S ARIGATO TO MY BELOVED MAB! thx for teaching the blog nub how to post image >.>

thats all, hees ^^

JAAA!!!!!

2008-12-07T02:20:00.000-08:00

few days of lazy to blog -.- now updated! these few days painting my house~ now so beautiful xD my room is in purple colour while living room is yellow..cool right!

well..recently im soooo bored of games..i cant even tahan any game past lvl 20 @.@ sigh..den my com space is so bloody small..few days ago got the dumb pc show..wanted to buy a external harddisk 640gb at 129.90..but end up what happen? uncle kao pei me say i use com till cannot be control..EH EXTERNAL HARDDISK STORE MY PSP GAMES AND ANIME GOT FAULT MEH!! den nvm..say the discount is only 10 dolla cheaper..say wan go sim lim can buy better.. OI BEDOK TO SIM LIM TAKE TAXI BACK AND FORTH IS LIKE WHAT, 10+ GONE. some dumbos in singapore totally never think..10dolla cheaper + bus availability transport = CHEAP. bedok to simlim by TAXI is like what..8+ GONE? zzz..

so yea..end up what i do? delete animes and games..now my com is empty and STILL LAGGING. piece of crap..

hmm..so yea recently hook into ran online..its quite fun actually xD and as of today..i quit maple, private and original. thx to someone that store "their" eqs in my acc and force me to throw away..talk about account rights. i have no account rights to my account at all. hah talk about abusing authority.

well i don't care if the person im refering to happens to view my blog, if u think im so fucking noob as to spawn myself a godly item, so be it. but let me tell u, ITEMS STATS CAN ONLY BE EDITED BY THE ADMIN AND HIS OWN DATABASE. im hacker much, indeed. hahahahaha

a boring wednesday

2008-12-03T00:02:00.000-08:00

yawnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn i just woke up about an hour ago..nothing much to do at home..
AHH!! now i hate holidays man..its cool but totally sucks, not that i like school anyways..haha
anyway it seems my style of typing is coming back to me each day i blog =D so yea gonna talk about my list of games that i am playing..hope u guys will join me in it~

Sho online - 2x archer

Maple private - er..currently 0 because someone did not give me the hamachi id and pw =x

N-age online - haven start but it resemble cabal + ran online..cool eh?

ragnarok - ah..the good old days but theres a original f2p server now called valkrie

Left 4 dead - TOTALLY ROCKS IN THE FIRST PLACE, but boring after playing all the map 5 to 7times..not updated much yet.

Warcraft - currently playing every crap maps i can find..

to people interested in L4d and Warcraft games..u will have to download garena. google it urself guys =x

as for other games..

Sho online

N-age online

ragnarok valkrie server

as for L4d and Warcraft..u will hve to try ur luck in mininova.org~

ok enough about games..talk about myself for today or whatever day..lol

have not eaten anything yet T_T but does not feel hungry at all..im starting to hate food

going to bath in about 30mins soon too =x

now in msn chatting with peoples

and not to forget...

I LOVE KOREAN SONGS! WOOHOO THEY ARE SO EMOOOO SONGS SOMETIMES

for example..taeyeon - can you hear me (my blog song)

she is the leader if SNSD a.k.a girls generation

and not to forget the best 2 band i love..wonder girls and big bang! gawd, they are the latest craze now.

so yea..if u want a list of their nice songs..tag me in my bored and i will upload them to mediafire ^^

and last of all..i miss all my friends T_T alot of them are already mia from my life..hope they tag me back or msn me again...miss u guys T_T

might post some screenshot in tml if i manage to learn how to. LOL.

last - eileen is the best =x

revived due to holidays

2008-12-01T08:54:00.000-08:00

ahhh..the long awaited holidays arrive for me about 1 month ago..and i hate it *&@$*(#&$*(#

WHAT THE HELL LOR!?!

ahh nothing to type sia..hmm talk about exams ba..i recently found my sch target for me lol and guess wad?

my L1B4 target is 9!! lol i cant believe it when i see that shit target set by my sch RAHH RAHH RAHHH getting 9 x4 is possible..but 9 x1 is..shit bricks lol.

anyway..due to long term of not typing..my words are like those engineering ppl who do things systematically..hence my paragraphing =/

purpose of writing this ar..just to inform ppl that i revive my blog lor..and FINDING PPL TO HELP ME DO SKIN FOR BLOG! im a pro at scripts and hacks..but a dumb at chaging blogskina -.-

anyway~~ BUAII!! ^^

edit: shit i loaded a skin for female instead..screw me -.-

Dreams

2008-05-18T21:26:00.000-07:00

Dreams..a type of place where everyone visioned out their innermost wish and hopes. everyone has it, including me. dreams are like a sort of message from the heart, it tells us what we most desire but as the saying goes "dreams are the opposite of reality".

ok lets try to make a story out of it :)

One day, a boy was sleeping after turning bck and forth for ages. in his dream he saw what he likes, beautiful scenery such as the trees, flowers, birds and of course ..her.

right here he felt the joy and happiness which he thought to himself "it's too good to be true eh?"
but he doesn't care for he knew he must make the best out of it. minutes seems like hours, he goes everywhere with her..to play, study and everywhere they gone too before. it felt so real.
however, in his consciousness, he knew this is but an illusion created by him. lying there in a dilema, he was given two choices..reality or illusions. for a whil he ponder while looking at the girl he loves, what can he do? what can the small little him do?

reality and illusions are probably the hardest thing to choose but what is most important is that no matter what choices u make, u gain the courage to face it. so, after mustering up courage he look at the girl he beloved so much that he would do anything for her and made a choice. Not too long later, the pair of emerald blue eyes open(heh i wish i had those eyes therefore i add it in xD) and there he was, in his cold dark little room. he sit up from his comfortable bed and droplets of tears stream down his cheek. The courageous boy took the reality path. He took it as he knew that even thought he would love to be with the girl he loved forever, it is nothing but an illusion but the love and concern from people around him are real.

A smile shoned on his face, he knew he never made a wrong choice. And as he stood up, he gets ready for the day that is waiting for him.

The End

ahhh...it's been a long while since i enjoy writing stories and this story is abit..well..my illusion hahahaha. well yea..hope the girl i loved be happy whereaever she are. it's true we never made it pass the obstacle but what i truely gain from it is courage. The courage to love, and be loved and to say i love you. i took the reality path because i kept the illusion of u right in my heart.

maybe i should come up with a poem to end this post yeah?

"Dreams"

~~Dreams are illusion sprouted from the heart=
~~For those that yearn to break free apart=
~~Dreams are reality created by love=
~~Dreams are stories of the person i loved=

Created by Sean.

so there it goes, my post about dreams, about love and about courage. lets end this post with the simple and very special word yea?

I.L.O.V.E.Y.O.U

fweeeeeeeeeeeee

2008-05-06T18:58:00.000-07:00

wow its been like 3 days since i last blog o.O well im gonan revive it!! lol

today i had like physics/chem paper 1 and i was like "oh gosh its quite easy" lasted 1 hour =D from 8am to 9am finish. after that headed home..and right now sitting in front of my com and typing this thing la -.- lets see..i shall summarize wad i did the previous 3 days.

ok i cant remember..only remember the sohai maths paper was SO DAM FREAKING HARD *pulls hair* hahahahhahaha. the first question and im gone already -.- mehh im kinda worried about my o lvls now ._. well basically i think mid year'sp aper is harder then o lvls ba..so o lvls should be easier =/ *hope so* well..duno what to post already -.- shall stop here. *stay tune for the next bloggie!!*

P.s <3 mabel, clarine, son and cookie dar T_T [u know how much i miss u T.T wuwuwu]

first post o.O

2008-05-04T07:35:00.000-07:00

fweeeeeeeeee maomao started his own blog!! lol (being slightly crazy due to technical blog issues *mumble okie im a blogtard so wad -.-*

hmm..why do i start this blog..i have no reasons why too!!! lol somethings does not need a reason right? =x

anyway..posting a song which connects to my heart right now

Title : here without you (yea i know its old but its nice)
Singer: 3 Doors Down

Lyrics:

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.

ur still on my mind..unerasable

Ciaos~ (bad way to kick start a new blog eh? -.- )